2+2= a family of 4!!

Written on 8:17 AM by gracefully discovering:

On November 13, 2008 my husband and I were ecstatic to find out that we had conceived a child through pure love and of course intimacy. This was one of the happiest days of our marriage! We found out right at four weeks because we did the whole track the ovulation days, buy a buncha home pregnancy test thing. So on the day that my cycle was supposed to come...I took the test. (No I didn't miss my period yet...but they have the test that you can tell 5 days before a missed period.) Anyway, Nick looked at the stick and he thought that it was only one line like the test from last month. But the line was just a little faint!! So I went to look at the test and of course I saw TWO lines! We were so excited...but still a little skeptical since the line was so faint. Once I got to work, I took a digital test that showed the word PREGNANT! I was convinced! We were so excited!!

Moving on to December 3, 2008, our first visit to the Doctor for an ultrasound. We go in...ready to see our baby on the screen....and what does she say but this: "Wow, looks like there are two in there." and I said "Who?? Who got two in there...two of what??" and then I immediately started crying. I couldn't believe it! I wish I could sit here and tell you that I was crying tears of joy because I always wanted twins and that this is what I had been praying and dreaming for my whole life! But I told you that I am working on this authenticity thing.....so to be totally authentic, I was crying because she started talking about all of the risks of identical twins and how she couldn't tell if they were in their own sac...and how that could pose all other kinds of problems...something about Twin to Twin Transfusion...and how we had to go see a Specialist (and by that time I had tuned her completely out as she is rubbing on my leg- consoling me)....and really on top of all of that, I was crying because I didn't know what we were gonna do with TWO babies at one time, two cribs, two car seats, two daycare expenses, two babies crying at night, two babies that needed to be breastfed...I WAS IN TOTAL SHOCK!


I went through this whole shock, overwhelming, anxiety, half way slight depression thing for about a week! I felt so guilty because everyone was soooooo excited and I wasn't there yet. I was sick and freaking out! My husband did such a great job of putting things into perspective for me. He allowed me time to feel how I felt and still helped me to try and feel better about it. He never made me feel bad for having these very normal feelings...and I appreciate him so much for that. (this is why I love him so much)


Moving on....we went to see the Specialist about a week later and found out wonderful news! Our OB Doctor said that she couldn't tell if they were in their own amniotic sac...and the Specialist clearly saw two amniotic sacs..which was a HUGE relief! They share a Chorion sac (which is the big sac..and how we know they are identical) and then in the big sac, they are in their own amniotic sacs! We also heard their heartbeats. I think hearing the heartbeats was the best thing for me...because I started to feel some excitement about our two babies. Still scared....but excited!


As the time went on, I began to really appreciate the blessing that has been bestowed upon my husband and I . Identical twins are very rare...and no one even knows how it happens- not Scientist, Doctors, Researchers...nobody. For some freak of nature the one egg that is fertilized is split a couple days after conception. This truly is a sign that God is real and does things exactly how he wants it. And for HIM to believe that we would be able to take care of two of his babies at one time is enough for me. Then I started thinking about how cute and fun it's gonna be watching them grow up and seeing their different personalities, dressing them, and them trying to play tricks on us and everyone else..lol! Then the more positive things I started to think about- the less overwhelmed I felt.


Today at 13 weeks...and I am very proud to be able to carry two little baby girls that will be brought into this world sometime around the beginning of July. My feelings of being overwhelmed, anxious, stressed, completely freaked out are pretty much gone...and all I really think about now is paying daycare for two babies!! Has anyone looked at the prices lately!! But seriously, I am very happy to be in this place. 6 weeks ago, I wasn't here and didn't think that I would be...but I am. By the grace of God, my wonderful supportive husband who is obsessed with these babies already, great friends and family, and a little time for me process this and put things in perspective..I AM HERE IN A GREAT PLACE!


We're having two babies at one time, that will cry through the night, need their pampers changed, need to eat, need two of everything, break the bank on daycare, and bring us so much joy and happiness. I am excited!


Meet twins A (fat fat)& B (skinny)! This picture was at 8 weeks...our most recent ultrasound isn't letting me take a good picture of it. But we go back next Friday and I promise to get a better picture and show you how big they are now! They are much bigger than this...we can actually see their faces...nose, eyes, big heads, arms...they are already super cute! I can't wait to meet these two little divas!